Monthly Archives: July 2011

Just For Your Birthday

Though I may not be with you I sit here in awe as I sense and feel you
Having a silence about this day as it is your very own day
I know things are not as we have expected but you have not withheld my mind
You have remained there within it at all times
Nothing is too hard for you to do your strength keeps us alive in us
Making it easier also for me to remain focused on you
I stand up as witness to you
I am your light and forever hope
I am strong in you
I am not going to forget your special day put out just for you
Happy birthday love
Just for your birthday

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Posted by on July 31, 2011 in Love, Uncategorized


Trust I Seen Don't Mean A Thing It Seems

I put all my trusts to the limit and believe only to learn a waist may be made.
Loss of hope and loss of betray
This has gotta be super lame
I have nothing left as it is and then your gonna give me this. Really? Is this necessary now? Why do you hold this on my name? Where is this sign on my head
What sin has my family taken putting this fate over me
This I do not understand
One I can not just turn my head and look the other way to avoid what fates we have
Not looking for a other new day though my days have come to an end. Trusts I see seen not mean a thing

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Posted by on July 30, 2011 in Uncategorized


Disappointed With Life

Disappointed with the path of my life I sit back still holding tight to my faith
Trying my best not to turn around and glance back
Yet still not knowing what words to say to you and feeling lost within myself and embarrassed at my eyes sights of this life I have around me
No answers to bare and all honestys put out
Tears still falling everyday as my mother has gone leaving my life aray and on such dismay
Nothing of her faults, nothing of her blame
Although unfortunately I still feel the discomfort and pain
my days all coming together and becoming one.
Worring is a thing of the day wondering if I’d ever see the sun.
Tears rolling off my eyes each thoughts remaining on my kids and you
I am not happy and I know that you aren’t either
But my thoughts all focused on that one new day.  My very own life. If I can not have life, may life have me.
As I am only disappointed with this life I see.

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Posted by on July 29, 2011 in Love, Uncategorized


Wish I Were A Wizard

I wish that I were a wizard of many tricks. I wish that I could perform a spell to take it all away. I wouldnt be left behind with none there on time
I wouldn’t be abandond and orphaned walking the streets
I wish that I were a wizard of many tricks and traits
I’d use my spells for those specific situations.
I wish that I were a wizard of many tricks

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Posted by on July 28, 2011 in Uncategorized


Not About Me Me Me….

He says all the time that I am selfish, yet I ask myself why am I selfish for putting others before myself in everything I think or do
It’s always looking out for you
Yet you think It’s me me me
What am I to do to change the way that you think and perceive me
Even to be around you doesn’t only upset you but also me
I think myself not selfish when its never about me in my very own eyes but this you can not see and I don’t know why
I thought it obvious that all within my life was not about me
But you have blocked it and see me me me
Sorry guys It’s not about ME …
It’s about survival and what is best for myself amass my little family. I am sorry that you are blind to see, my life is about raising my three and working with me.

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Posted by on July 26, 2011 in Love, Uncategorized


Brown Eyes

Brown eyes honest and content.
Making light with the steps traveled
A coat so slick in style and soft in feel
With the smell that sticks around with every fresh rains
I close my eyes to think of you even while you are not by my side and outline your each and every shades
With yours ears always keeping you alert
Your eyes watching and protecting me always.
In the peek of the night you sing your wild song at the big bright moon
I listen and hear your song while I dream in my sleep
Throughout it all your eyes and soul are what draw me to you thru everything.

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Posted by on July 24, 2011 in Love, Uncategorized


I Can Sense And Feel Your Pain

I look into your eyes and although I can not see what you’ve seen I can see and sense and feel your pain. Uneasy to trust and hear what is truth your timid and torn between what you know as life and the journey of life itself. You try to face up and playfully play like a fox pup but stand your ground with ears perched like a young wolf protecting your territory and den. In search of the right path right therein where you stand in search of someone you could truly call a friend. Head still holding high you continue to travel on telling yourself to be strong. Knowing that your life will soon turn around you push on and steady to continue on. I see in your eyes just what rest you put behind to begin new now as you work to grow. You have those wolf eyes on you and they speak loud and wild. This is your life what you are learning to travel so keep focused and stay calm soon enough life will look up and not toward the ground.

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Posted by on July 21, 2011 in Love, Uncategorized