Category Archives: Love

Life In Transition And Homelessness

Being lost in the world and feeling no safe haven of your own trying to raise three kids who are at steak of being taken away, while trying to survive from this bitter two faced world of fear and disrespect. Life isnt easy while people look at you like a villain when you live homeless in transition and confusion yet. It’s really them who dont understand or even know what life is like for you. Yet they gloat as if they do. I try harder and harder yet to keep my head held high and my smile wide. Yet daily life is still the same and nothing has gone different or changed. With seven years without a job now and no roof to call my own, handicapped raising three kids on my own splurging on scraps and change to make enough change to make all ends meet.
A christmas made from gift cards of my money I have gained and saved. My emotions felt stay focused on one thing….the embrace of christ pulling me thru as my tears still fall from within both my eyes as I only continue so strong to try.


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My Deepest Everything

We rarely speak anymore
Yet we pass like two ships sailing the wide seas together
Other thoughts always crossing each others minds day and night
Yet your always there and never here by my side
You really think that that is alright
I’d rather be cuddling with you both day and night with you always and forever at my side
Not just a figment in time passing me by
Not just a thought or dream crossing my mind
I want to hold your name and be proud that I am yours and announce that you are forever mine
I want to make love for real and make the love we feel real and not just a word of the time within life
I dont just want to speak and say how we feel
I want to show you and feel it so much more. I want everything. I want it all to be sereal.
I want a life meant to be for real
I want to be outdoors with you hearing the call of a great horned owl overhead.
I want to be in your arms and holding hands in and out of my bed.
I want to cuddle next to the warm fire every holiday and in the cold
And ride horseback along a moonlit and sunlit beach
I want you to truly be my deepest everything.

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Posted by on December 6, 2012 in Animals/Nature, Love, Poetry, Uncategorized



The Hand That Reaches

The hand that reaches out

Is the hand that’s meant to save

to grasp and embrase in tightness, love and understanding of many and all things

the hand that reaches out digs it’s own path and keeps it maintained

it’s the hand that will hold you high not letting you fall to the ground

it’s the hand that you will brag about and lend out for a friend who is in desperate need

It’s the hand you’ll keep around as long as it still grabs on strong that of a forever true friend.

the hand that reaches out is one that will never leave your side.

that will be the hand that hangs on to you and holds tight to yours walking you thru life

This hand embrasing yours never letting go

guiding you forward knowing always what’s got the best for you

it’s the hand that will lead you thru your dearest endevors and throughout your journeys in life

it’s the hand that will keep you walking tall and remind you to hold your head up high

the hand that reaches out is the one that will make a change

the hand that reaches out will give you what you need

it’s the one who will help you find a brighter tommorrow

give you a better day and help you always to find your way

the hand that reaches out is the one with the promise for tomorrow

who will be the voice for the future

who will remain with you for life

It will not leave you to sink and drown in sorrow

or leave you alone when you’re in fear

It will bring hand together lifting you up in prayer

the hand that reaches out will make you stronger holding on together

it will keep you open so that you are able to stay strong and find your own journey home

the hand that reaches out will not walk away when you call on it

it will be there in an instance never to let you down

this is the hand that I want

a forever friend with me

keeping me above them and helping me within my needs

this is a hand that keeps you happy and gives you what you need

it shows you all your worths and knows exactly what you diserve

this is the hand that reaches out

paying it forward

changing time

changing life

changing you and your own life

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Posted by on December 4, 2012 in Abuse/Beating, Love, Poetry, Uncategorized


In The Night. By Brie

Rest rest little head
Mommy’s there in the night
No need to fear
You are protected

Written by BrieAnna
Age 7





The Voids Of My Own Desires … Adult Rated

I lye alone in the dark of night
with you filling my head within my mind
getting steamy and hother within my thoughts feeling my body begin to warm up. desperate for a nice kiss and a lot of caress and touch. All turned on and loose with my heart ready to feel ecstasy with you. A hard thumping heart and throbbing pulsing between my legs. I am craving you beside me and deep inside. feeling so relaxed and just what I want. this feeling I have is just not enough.I need the real thing. You in my bed with me, passionate as ever with you beside me. My whole body going numb. my breasts tender, swollen and pulsing for more. you just are not there to fullfill my needs more. my thoughts focused so hard on what could be but I cant get nothing more. I want you now. I want yout here. fulfilling the void of my own desires. I can’t handle the crave anymore. The throbbing is too much and I want more.

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Posted by on November 3, 2012 in Love, Poetry, Uncategorized


Shark Attack….Hurricane Sandy 2012

Glad I’m not finding this in my yard….22 minutes ago near Strafford · Okay, you all have been asking if I am okay. In messages, here or mobile. So I am watching a tree almost falling onto my car or house not sure yet it is a HUGE tree and we are bucket emptying our celler door drain which has made it to the top of the step and almost into the house and Sandy is not even here yet. I will post photo’s soon.

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Posted by on October 29, 2012 in Love, Uncategorized


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The Day Fear Moved In

The day was grey not of any like the rest
Yoy could hear nothing more than a subtle silence
Chills ran throughout your spine

As your skin and bones grow cold
Your toes continuing to wiggle and your fingers and hands started to tremble.
Throwing layers and layers of clothes on yourself trying so hard to stay warm but your body freezing, being taken over by fear.

The day itself begins growing greyer and more severe. The wind begins to grow strong.

Rain begins to tap on the rooftops. You feel your heart begin to pump at your chest, throbbing like as it were a broken swollen limb on your body.

You know that your blood should keep pumping keeping you warm. However with fear growing so fast and so strong it’s making your automatic heater shut down.

This grey day moving in is the beginning of the day that fear moved in.

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Posted by on October 28, 2012 in Love, Uncategorized


Rest In Peace, Rest Your Head

Rest your soul little one
Ease your mind
Lay your head upon the land
Settle your tiny feet
Life was short, and taken wrong
But in your new life you are safe from harm

Not what we the people wanted or saw in our eyes
But seems that God had a beautiful plan for you indeed
What we thought would come to be did not come at all.

You are innocent and pure
You will be remembered and loved forever more.

The way you left was wrong I know
But you’ve earned your wings and moved on to where you now belong and see

Quiet and rest your soul now little one. You soon will find yourself within a better and safer and more beautiful place

Rest your head, rest in peace
Ease your mind you now are defenately in a much safer and better place.

Dedicated to Saanvi Venna
Who’s life was cut too short and was taken from us by a wrongful way. May you rest in peace Saanvi Venna you shall always be remembered here forever with me.


Posted by on October 28, 2012 in Abuse/Beating, kids, Love, Saanvi Venna, Uncategorized


Bring Saanvi Safely Home Please

As innocent as the day she were born

Her name Keeping her innocence alive

Her eyes light up every darkened crevice

Her life so silent and small, yet imagine it will you… so loved by all

her hands still so tiny to grasp and hold onto life itself

She’ll fight to hold on it’s written well inside of her book

Taken away from the princess life she was given

lost in a land she doesn’t even really know

too young for words to be said

too young and helpless to get up and run.

Where are you Saanvi

We miss you so

Oh Lord God, please someone let us know

How is this fair

No!! it’s not indeed

you know full well this is not the way of the life a Goddess should live

What is so wrong with this beauty you have seized so wrongly away

I see not what you but such a precious and beautiful baby

C’mon now how sick minded can you be, she is only a baby as once were you and me

Bright big beautiful eyes that speak spiritually without the words

Beautiful black hair to grow out long like that of her culture and land where she come

What has this baby done that we have not seen.

Nothing in our eyes…We still see none

All we see is a family and culture crying and dispaire as a grandmother was slain the day a baby disapears

Where is your mind if you think all of this is alright

This baby needs help and family to reunite


this child has done no wrong

she is innocent you see

she wants to just be brought home

You know nothing about this child that you have torn away from her most loving family

What if she is very sick, you don’t know her health or what she needs

you don’t even know her favorite things

Do you know her culture and how for ten months she’s been brought up and raised
Do you even know what It’s like to loose a child of your very own.
I do, not the way you have done but a loss of a child is not easy in any way done
Loosing your child, a love your closest best friend

I doubt, even that is a questionable thing.

Saanvi wants to be home with her mom and her dad

you are not them

you DON’T know just what she needs best

Look all around you all over the world

Yes Yes it is a small, small world my friend

look at all these countries, nations, states and yup even communities all around

hoping and praying that Saanvi  may return home safe and sound

look at this child how important she is to so many my friend

is this how you want to be remembered by letting everyone down and not bringing such a loved baby home

Your digging a hole so deep you’ll never get out

and what for…

for fame….

for a child you are unable to bare yourself
or are you just scared

what is the use

just bring her home please

You’ll regret all this once it’s over for sure

because you will be in more serious trouble and probably hated for life

for the life of a baby who is innocent and currently unsafe

You already took one life from the family

Saanvi’s grandmother…Isn’t that enough strife and heartache

bring home the child and let her behealthy and safe

Bring her home you have had her long enough now

bring her home where she is safe and sound at home
I am sure that this is not what you had imagined for the end to this story you’ve created. So why not end it now before the end in ends takes over

with her loving and only family

Bring Saanvi Safely Home Please

meaning of Saanvi: Goddess


Posted by on October 25, 2012 in Love, Uncategorized



Saanvi, The 10 Month Old Missing From PA

Let’s help find this child with all our mights…. What if it was our own?? There has been a $30,000 reward for the return of the young infant. Please help!!


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Posted by on October 24, 2012 in Abuse/Beating, kids, Love