Being lost in the world and feeling no safe haven of your own trying to raise three kids who are at steak of being taken away, while trying to survive from this bitter two faced world of fear and disrespect. Life isnt easy while people look at you like a villain when you live homeless in transition and confusion yet. It’s really them who dont understand or even know what life is like for you. Yet they gloat as if they do. I try harder and harder yet to keep my head held high and my smile wide. Yet daily life is still the same and nothing has gone different or changed. With seven years without a job now and no roof to call my own, handicapped raising three kids on my own splurging on scraps and change to make enough change to make all ends meet.
A christmas made from gift cards of my money I have gained and saved. My emotions felt stay focused on one thing….the embrace of christ pulling me thru as my tears still fall from within both my eyes as I only continue so strong to try.
Category Archives: Love
My Deepest Everything
We rarely speak anymore
Yet we pass like two ships sailing the wide seas together
Other thoughts always crossing each others minds day and night
Yet your always there and never here by my side
You really think that that is alright
I’d rather be cuddling with you both day and night with you always and forever at my side
Not just a figment in time passing me by
Not just a thought or dream crossing my mind
I want to hold your name and be proud that I am yours and announce that you are forever mine
I want to make love for real and make the love we feel real and not just a word of the time within life
I dont just want to speak and say how we feel
I want to show you and feel it so much more. I want everything. I want it all to be sereal.
I want a life meant to be for real
I want to be outdoors with you hearing the call of a great horned owl overhead.
I want to be in your arms and holding hands in and out of my bed.
I want to cuddle next to the warm fire every holiday and in the cold
And ride horseback along a moonlit and sunlit beach
I want you to truly be my deepest everything.
The Hand That Reaches
The hand that reaches out
Is the hand that’s meant to save
to grasp and embrase in tightness, love and understanding of many and all things
the hand that reaches out digs it’s own path and keeps it maintained
it’s the hand that will hold you high not letting you fall to the ground
it’s the hand that you will brag about and lend out for a friend who is in desperate need
It’s the hand you’ll keep around as long as it still grabs on strong that of a forever true friend.
the hand that reaches out is one that will never leave your side.
that will be the hand that hangs on to you and holds tight to yours walking you thru life
This hand embrasing yours never letting go
guiding you forward knowing always what’s got the best for you
it’s the hand that will lead you thru your dearest endevors and throughout your journeys in life
it’s the hand that will keep you walking tall and remind you to hold your head up high
the hand that reaches out is the one that will make a change
the hand that reaches out will give you what you need
it’s the one who will help you find a brighter tommorrow
give you a better day and help you always to find your way
the hand that reaches out is the one with the promise for tomorrow
who will be the voice for the future
who will remain with you for life
It will not leave you to sink and drown in sorrow
or leave you alone when you’re in fear
It will bring hand together lifting you up in prayer
the hand that reaches out will make you stronger holding on together
it will keep you open so that you are able to stay strong and find your own journey home
the hand that reaches out will not walk away when you call on it
it will be there in an instance never to let you down
this is the hand that I want
a forever friend with me
keeping me above them and helping me within my needs
this is a hand that keeps you happy and gives you what you need
it shows you all your worths and knows exactly what you diserve
this is the hand that reaches out
paying it forward
changing time
changing life
changing you and your own life
In The Night. By Brie
Rest rest little head
Mommy’s there in the night
No need to fear
You are protected
Written by BrieAnna
Age 7
The Voids Of My Own Desires … Adult Rated
I lye alone in the dark of night
with you filling my head within my mind
getting steamy and hother within my thoughts feeling my body begin to warm up. desperate for a nice kiss and a lot of caress and touch. All turned on and loose with my heart ready to feel ecstasy with you. A hard thumping heart and throbbing pulsing between my legs. I am craving you beside me and deep inside. feeling so relaxed and just what I want. this feeling I have is just not enough.I need the real thing. You in my bed with me, passionate as ever with you beside me. My whole body going numb. my breasts tender, swollen and pulsing for more. you just are not there to fullfill my needs more. my thoughts focused so hard on what could be but I cant get nothing more. I want you now. I want yout here. fulfilling the void of my own desires. I can’t handle the crave anymore. The throbbing is too much and I want more.
Shark Attack….Hurricane Sandy 2012
Glad I’m not finding this in my yard….22 minutes ago near Strafford · Okay, you all have been asking if I am okay. In messages, here or mobile. So I am watching a tree almost falling onto my car or house not sure yet it is a HUGE tree and we are bucket emptying our celler door drain which has made it to the top of the step and almost into the house and Sandy is not even here yet. I will post photo’s soon.
The Day Fear Moved In
The day was grey not of any like the rest
Yoy could hear nothing more than a subtle silence
Chills ran throughout your spine
As your skin and bones grow cold
Your toes continuing to wiggle and your fingers and hands started to tremble.
Throwing layers and layers of clothes on yourself trying so hard to stay warm but your body freezing, being taken over by fear.
The day itself begins growing greyer and more severe. The wind begins to grow strong.
Rain begins to tap on the rooftops. You feel your heart begin to pump at your chest, throbbing like as it were a broken swollen limb on your body.
You know that your blood should keep pumping keeping you warm. However with fear growing so fast and so strong it’s making your automatic heater shut down.
This grey day moving in is the beginning of the day that fear moved in.
Rest In Peace, Rest Your Head
Rest your soul little one
Ease your mind
Lay your head upon the land
Settle your tiny feet
Life was short, and taken wrong
But in your new life you are safe from harm
Not what we the people wanted or saw in our eyes
But seems that God had a beautiful plan for you indeed
What we thought would come to be did not come at all.
You are innocent and pure
You will be remembered and loved forever more.
The way you left was wrong I know
But you’ve earned your wings and moved on to where you now belong and see
Quiet and rest your soul now little one. You soon will find yourself within a better and safer and more beautiful place
Rest your head, rest in peace
Ease your mind you now are defenately in a much safer and better place.
Dedicated to Saanvi Venna
Who’s life was cut too short and was taken from us by a wrongful way. May you rest in peace Saanvi Venna you shall always be remembered here forever with me.
Bring Saanvi Safely Home Please
As innocent as the day she were born
Her name Keeping her innocence alive
Her eyes light up every darkened crevice
Her life so silent and small, yet imagine it will you… so loved by all
her hands still so tiny to grasp and hold onto life itself
She’ll fight to hold on it’s written well inside of her book
Taken away from the princess life she was given
lost in a land she doesn’t even really know
too young for words to be said
too young and helpless to get up and run.
Where are you Saanvi
We miss you so
Oh Lord God, please someone let us know
How is this fair
No!! it’s not indeed
you know full well this is not the way of the life a Goddess should live
What is so wrong with this beauty you have seized so wrongly away
I see not what you but such a precious and beautiful baby
C’mon now how sick minded can you be, she is only a baby as once were you and me
Bright big beautiful eyes that speak spiritually without the words
Beautiful black hair to grow out long like that of her culture and land where she come
What has this baby done that we have not seen.
Nothing in our eyes…We still see none
All we see is a family and culture crying and dispaire as a grandmother was slain the day a baby disapears
Where is your mind if you think all of this is alright
This baby needs help and family to reunite
PLEASE DO NO HARM
this child has done no wrong
she is innocent you see
she wants to just be brought home
You know nothing about this child that you have torn away from her most loving family
What if she is very sick, you don’t know her health or what she needs
you don’t even know her favorite things
Do you know her culture and how for ten months she’s been brought up and raised
Do you even know what It’s like to loose a child of your very own.
I do, not the way you have done but a loss of a child is not easy in any way done
Loosing your child, a love your closest best friend
I doubt, even that is a questionable thing.
Saanvi wants to be home with her mom and her dad
you are not them
you DON’T know just what she needs best
Look all around you all over the world
Yes Yes it is a small, small world my friend
look at all these countries, nations, states and yup even communities all around
hoping and praying that Saanvi may return home safe and sound
look at this child how important she is to so many my friend
is this how you want to be remembered by letting everyone down and not bringing such a loved baby home
Your digging a hole so deep you’ll never get out
and what for…
for fame….
for a child you are unable to bare yourself
or are you just scared
what is the use
just bring her home please
You’ll regret all this once it’s over for sure
because you will be in more serious trouble and probably hated for life
for the life of a baby who is innocent and currently unsafe
You already took one life from the family
Saanvi’s grandmother…Isn’t that enough strife and heartache
bring home the child and let her behealthy and safe
Bring her home you have had her long enough now
bring her home where she is safe and sound at home
I am sure that this is not what you had imagined for the end to this story you’ve created. So why not end it now before the end in ends takes over
with her loving and only family
Bring Saanvi Safely Home Please
meaning of Saanvi: Goddess
Saanvi, The 10 Month Old Missing From PA
Let’s help find this child with all our mights…. What if it was our own?? There has been a $30,000 reward for the return of the young infant. Please help!!
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