Monthly Archives: February 2011

Nuts, rythem, passion, play,stranger and ending with proper
are the words that the voices stated as I lay there on my bed and played

thinking of this special someone I hold dear to my heart and think of each day

invisioning us making love and passionate ties I lay there on that bed I did while they shouted and yelled this at that very time

this time I thought that was only mine making me laugh at each single word as it yelled each one as if in rythem to the thoughts of my mind

lying there alone I had still felt someone with me touching my nature of my own body

arousing my spirit I could not believe what it was I was seeing

was it all play in my moment invisioning he, or was it a ghost coming onto me 

when I had finally finished I laughed at this thought

as I focused some more and listened once more to the voice the call of the voices talking to me

He said as I then sat up in the bed Stranger

was it this stranger in my mind I had invisioned in time or was it this ghost of the voices yelling at me

I still find things funny somhow

yet now again in bed but yet this time with silence drawing in once more

You meet each other for the first time and your hearts begin to pound like drums. You gaze into each others eyes noticing no one else around. You begin to think how sweet is he…this hero I see. Day by day goes by than you exchange your first kiss. Both shy and now red in glow you begin to giggle as you both feel kinda embarrassed at this new idea between you two. Months years go by some more and now you have grown still closer some more. Now you look into each others gaze and you can never let go. You have made it this far now ready for the next step into love. You open the door Lyon down in each others arms and begin now getting lost in that once quiet gaze. His gentle touch running across your body like a babies soft small fingers it’s so gentle and soft that you begin to draw in nearer. Your eyes gentle gaze becomes a softer deeper kiss where your lips lock in super and move in a slow closing form around each other so subtle and shallow. Hands beginning to roam to find there safety place at home. While the breath begins to speed up skipping air pockets and hearts behind to race. You begin hearing sounds neither has made before. Suddenly you feel each other thrusting in rhythm and time and bodies getting warm then hot and sweat rolling off each others arms and thigh. Again looking into each others gaze its again different this time as you feel different somehow. You feel fullfilled and content in the moment of exhale. Caught in the moment nonetheless. This moment you have awaited and feel full bliss. Now you look in each others eyes once again one more time and you know at that moment they are the one. You have joined in physical each others flesh and you know that the time that you look in those eyes again will be that moment that you two join to become one.

You meet each other for the first time and your hearts begin to pound like drums. You gaze into each others eyes noticing no one else around. You begin to think how sweet is he…this hero I see. Day by day goes by than you exchange your first kiss. Both shy and now red in glow you begin to giggle as you both feel kinda embarrassed at this new idea between you two. Months years go by some more and now you have grown still closer some more. Now you look into each others gaze and you can never let go. You have made it this far now ready for the next step into love. You open the door Lyon down in each others arms and begin now getting lost in that once quiet gaze. His gentle touch running across your body like a babies soft small fingers it’s so gentle and soft that you begin to draw in nearer. Your eyes gentle gaze becomes a softer deeper kiss where your lips lock in super and move in a slow closing form around each other so subtle and shallow. Hands beginning to roam to find there safety place at home. While the breath begins to speed up skipping air pockets and hearts behind to race. You begin hearing sounds neither has made before. Suddenly you feel each other thrusting in rhythm and time and bodies getting warm then hot and sweat rolling off each others arms and thigh. Again looking into each others gaze its again different this time as you feel different somehow. You feel fullfilled and content in the moment of exhale. Caught in the moment nonetheless. This moment you have awaited and feel full bliss. Now you look in each others eyes once again one more time and you know at that moment they are the one. You have joined in physical each others flesh and you know that the time that you look in those eyes again will be that moment that you two join to become one. Bringing marriage now foward as an idea and suddenly realizing you are nolonger alone. Together uniting your soul as their own and theirs with yours family becoming one. This is the time when a moment went from the moment to one

When I saw your face you made me smile

My heart fluttered sending shivers up my spine as it skipped a beat

You were like a dream in the slumber of the night

Like a thought in the clouds I lifted my head in belief while i closed my eyes in a prayer

you were  all I saw in the sight of my eyes

you were like a dream that I never awoke from

My hands began to shake as my blood rapidly flowed thru my veins

My breath was taken away just a lil gasp was all I could say

You were my prince come to save my day

You were like a dream

Now your just a distant word in the dark of night as I hold on to the memories till we see each other one day in the good life

a thought in my mind with my pictures of the brain

lots of memories and lots of strife

holding onto and knowing that all will come to be

and that life in the future will not remain the same

your life of today will hold onto a different name

the fairys will take your old life away helping you make a brighter life today

Laying my head upon the pillow in my bed

I say a prayer then rest my head

thinking of you as I rest

while watching the snow outside fall

remembering the winters of my childhood filled with bliss

pondering in thought how much we’ll really see

is this finally it or is there still yet more

My eyes feeling droopy my body ice cold

I lay missing you in awe

my life in somewhat slumber rest

 as all the children rest their own little heads

I know when morning falls they’ll ask to go out and play

 running out that front door to enjoy this new snow day

with you still on my mind I try to sleep

although feeling uneasy with envy

Missing you so I look out my window

Watching the white wintery snow falling to the ground below

 to change my  point of focus

from thoughts of you…out to the snow

finally falling asleep calm and resting

I search within my dreams

where in my dreams my focus still remains on you

My love holds strong

to the heart you have

sustaining you I am

In my dreams I dream a story never finished or untold

living each day in a new mystery

His love is true

I know this well

this door is left open for you

 telling me the mysteries of the untold

hidden in duquise

I stay silent

fear within fills me inside

thinking of you as I miss you now

with the thought in me remaining sustained

This is love I will hold tight like a wolf in persuit

of a hunt he sees.

Steady and ready he seems to proceed

While shaking deep inside

just trying to finish off and succeed

this slumber rest is what I need

making me feeling good and refreshed indeed

I am writing this letter to myself in hopes that my life could soon be changed It’s just past one year now since your mom had died

 there are so many things I see in you that you saw in her

things you see that have made you cry

like missing her and other things you have seen that give you and dad laughs because even he sees the same similarity or reminder that you feel she’s left behind.

Your thirty-three now and yourself and the kids are growing older

yet its funny how she passes and you feel as if you are her at times with things you see that she left behind

 you’ve begun to realize all the similarties the two of you actually did have in common as you never had before eventhough you thought the two of you were two total opposites.

 I will right you once more again in about one year and then once again in about five sometime lets try to see the change.

I hope that God will soon bless you and the children as well as your life.

In one year they will be seven,six, and four and will understand and learn alot more

So hopefully you will soon be able to close that bad door in theirs and your own life.

Bringing a better tommorrow to your name and sometime in the near future you should soon be making a move.

Hold tight to your life and try your hardest to make it worth something big.

 In another five years more

hopefully you should have a new open door in that new tame life and the kids will become then twelve,eleven, and nine leaving a bit more freedom for thine.

 Much older than

they surely would understand than and things will be more sensative to them.

So the faster you get this all tied down the easier life will be for the three and for you.

Mom loved you she’d want nothing but the best of the best for you.

I know i would love and you would love best to try to make her happy weather she were still here or not.

 Good luck, and I shall check in again soon. For now go rest and remember this note.

Signed,
Letter to myself

Rages higher than the tree tops
With many different colors of red orange and blues in an inferno of heat out in the fifty degree and sixty-five miles per hour gusts this crazy fire raging in the night too many houses and lives near by
Surrounded in woods of trees for miles by and by yet do they care about safety
This I am not sure seems a bit strange in some way
My very own house smelling of smoke within my house
Air so heavy and thick it makes it hard to breath
The neighbors house ashes in the blackened ground people walking down to see how safe they all are for their own families nothing but bright lights as if it were again christmas roads surrounding closed to all traffic nearby everyone in awe about it really being so close to home even for them something like that out of a fantasy movie or a land far away this raging fire lighting the midnight sky and smoke smelling like that of a campfire in the night this was what we returned home to in the middle of the night something we never even expected to be or seen within our plate a deep strong raging fire on the night

Have you ever just sat and pondered about the beauty and majestics around that of a peacock

After many years of enjoyment, laughter, and love of the majestics of the peacocks I began to have a obsessions of their ineer and outer beautys

taking many a photo whenever I was within their presences

Then my sister n law came into my life and it gave me even more genuine reason to focus myself into this intruiging bird as she herself also was just as obsessed with this creature also

Hense giving me more reasons to take many more and different photo’s just for me to share

I look at the way that this bird raises it’s crown making it seem so royal

How the colors are so bright to attract the female better

thinking why couldn’t we have some nature in itruiging color to help us get our mate so easily

Then I begin to think some more about how each feather although it looks pretty much the same in each one is actually unique and genuine in many different ways in each feather of it’s own

Have you actually ever studied a peacock feather

Wow….

I must say

There is really alot you could do with one

Many different interesting uses for the colorful piece

then to look at the way his feathers fan out making it look just like a giant fan of beauty

one single feather looking like a raindrop or tear drop dripping upon the earth

Or looking deeper into its design kinda looking like many tears falling to tell you its age

I have 3 peacock feathers of my very own

to be able to use them as a toy for the cats, or decor behind a mirror or painting and still see its beauty in the peacock itself and it’s myseterious royal life of majestics

these just seem to make you really think

this is defenetly a bird of many beauty’s, talent, mysetery and majestics

I agree

this is defenately a bird of royalty and beauty