Torn apart by blogs from the heart
with the words that were meant to be
families formed by connection of two
that were never one life in the same
Bringing out two families
separated by distances apart
knowing they were meant to be
but never seeing heart in time
hearing and seeing things of the pasts
things that fall out of rhyme with time
like a lightning flash or a light bulb marking a new idea
there are things looking and fitting not so right
two soul mates knowing they are so
yet having yet to be together as now
things not always making sense as two soul mates should
questions in among the head
with un answered thoughts to speak
hidden in worlds darkness
for a soul mate is hard to find
true but still I feel I am loosing mine
living in a world of time
where nothing is real and all games
I feel so pure of the feelings we have
yet all around me is wrong
Seeing things written and read
of things I have never seen before
makes things not feel true
Knowing that is not how it is
or how it should be
I am living honest feelings
as some things on the screen I read
question me and make me wonder how much I really believe
Things that rub me in the wrong way
bringing in tears unto my eyes
things I do not want to read
and don’t make sense within
all of our dreams
however things I see and hear
sounding and looking like we never will
I don’t know how to hold tight
when things are piling up and just not adding up right
Slowly being torn apart by blogs from the heart
Blogs that mean so much for me to read each and everyday
wisdom holding but pains and fears building
ripping me to pieces inside of myself
or voices speaking inside my head
though I don’t think so… this feels deeper inside than voices
Do they even know it tears me up like that
what do I do now
If I reveal it will cause issues
people will read into it wrong
others may get hurt
but you don’t understand
just how bad it hurts me to see
to see the things of which I see
every year another promise not fulfilled
all beginning to just seem like words said or written out
I am sure that is not so
but only you are the one to know
only you know the heart of the pure blog
I try to remain strong
but it is so distant that I have nothing to hold with a grip
a grip that I need as every piece of what I believed true
just seems to be a short end in my hand or vanish into thin air
as a path that we were following that just slipped and vanished from beneath our feet
that I don’t believe is how it is suppost to be
however that is how it is feeling to me
I love you I do
but I just don’t know what is happening and going on
nothing making sense in what I see
it hurts just as much to say
as it does to see and read
but all in itself I try to believe
for the soul mate I know we are and can be
I am hoping that you may read this just knowing i needed to vent
Nothing you read truly being meant
Praying that you aren’t becoming mad
just needed to clear thoughts from within my head
thoughts that just don’t really make sense
with thing that you and I have spoken between you and me alone
Know I mean it when I say that I love you
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