Author Archives: J. Palmer

You once told me as a mother and my friend

that I was inspirational

that I was well with my words

you always told me that I was a good writer

that I was a poet of many words

that my inspiration and my voice could change the world

that I could move mountains just by walking the valleys

I just needed to believe

you always enjoyed my work

you once told me that I was a good artist

that I always had good strong detail

these words you said I had never believed

I had never tried to do these works for you as much as I could

now you have gone and everything of inspiration and art is coming out more

I feel bad cause I had never had the chance to really show you

though I thank you for showing me just what I had

if you were here today I know that you’d be proud

you told me that even my brother’s believed in me

yet I could never believe in myself

it took your death for me to really open up and try to please you

inside I see now the poet I really can be

I love doing it, but I am not doing it for me now

I am doing it for you in your great memory

I have fully become the poet and artist you believed in

dedicated to my mom who died in 2010

who believed in me and had faith in what I could do and be

even I didn’t always see

I love you mom.

I am proud to be the poet and artist you believed in

even if I feel bad that you never had the chance to enjoy these poems I have recently made

rest your soul and I’ll see you again one day when it is in my time

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With my life round me crumbling to pieces and darkness prevailing in

 kids schedules off balance from the life that I have been given

 my heart lonely and emotions running dry of tears

I try to search for this light of hope yet it’s nowhere to be found

my heart begins to harden and die as I begin to see no hope inside

 this hopeless hope comes rushing in like rapids on a river

 I begin to loose my faith in all things in life that I see

 while i see nomore hope in front or around me

 I had once conquered my fear built in my life giving me hope in many places of void

now my hope that I once had within has died out burning out the flame

 and gone with the wind

 not even things that have kept me happy keep me happy anymore

 I feel like running away and walking right out the door

In your arms I want to be

 embraced and full of love

for if I were with you I couldn’t be so blue

  my hope would be filled once more

 all has gone lost since she passed away I can’t find any hope left inside

you opened the door for me once before and I know in time it will show me a sign but life is so hard with this hopeless hope

 I can’t even cry one tear

 my heart is longing for this hope again and crying full with pain

I lived my life as I best have

not yet giving up but hope I need to find

 you say that two sets of footprints are here one mine and one yours

 that you are here but it’s so hard anymore for mearly the thought that in tough times when I only see the one set this is when I needed you most and this my dear is when you have carried me along that tough road

 I can not feel as you are here at all

my heart has hardened to keep me sain as best it can while protecting me from disater of myself

I only ask of you to help me out here to find a way to help me locate and find the hope I search as I feel I have failed and lost the way needing some extra help today

If you really are with me this I plee

 find a new life and help me for this hopeless hope is filling within me drounding me

within washing me away in sorrow

I know that I conqured this once before  though I feel I can not this time for sure

I ask of thee to help me stay strong for a though road I have known

to find a place for me to be that I can call my own my home

 bring me into the happy place I once had always known

 finding peace and serenity within filling me once again with that hope

my road has slimmed my health is failing

 soon I fear there will not be much more life in me let alone a trust in you my spirit is growing dim my vision has already become blind

my mind within my brain is dieing as hope has gone away

in search of hope I try to find I try to continue still however passing time and digging deep i see none in sight

 only a hopeless hope I see that I wish I could destroy

 it’s ugly and evil and nothing to view as it only depresses me more

build me up lord

help me once more

 I am loosing myself like a quicksand pit sucking me into it’s hole

 I have nothing much left within for I have already given up this life I have right now life is too hard for me to like

please vanish this hopeless hope and build me up inside

giving me a strong support to hold me high

for my time is coming near that I will soon give up some more

What would you do if you awoke to another ordinary day as every other day and with no warning your whole life was like it was erased from your embrace. I think if it were me part with in me would be happy and free showing me a new direction to start fresh again in areas I may have seen lacking of happiness and relief although I probably would also see some sadness as the things in life important to me or that had made me happy may have been the things wiped out of my life for eternity or close to forever but that is Just my imaginations of what could have been with me giving me somewhat of a fresh start and second chance

I look at this world today and can not even really imagine the what life is of today there would be just too many with over hundreds and possibly by the thousands dead or missing I can not even fathom it in reality because there is no way to it wasn’t me
Though my heart goes out to all the many affected and worries about the friends and family that we know or have who live there who are affected by it first hand while i hurt still for those others unrelated who are suffering in pain or in their own worry or even over loss that they have been part of a tsunami and an earthquake of 8.9 many killed and an entire train missing this is all something I feel their pain there screams of terror and fears and I pray for good cause and families torn apart or lost this is sad to hear then for it to come so near as far to the US west coast where there are people I care about and I know it brings in my own fears as I worry about them all from right here and nowhere near

its sad yea but it is fact, life, and real and it is something that God or Satan left in our lane of life to make us see whether it be to be learned from or to be known and grow from we will learn and know in good time but Father God for now until we know why bless those who still have life, touch those who lost important people loved ones and families heal the sick,injured and hurt, find the many who are lost and give back the true importance of the needy who lost all the small they had. Most of all lord bring back unity and serenity into the world and let not hearts be hardened or burdened by this but let some good come from beyond. Be with your planet in time of grievance and disparity and help it make all stronger then. For I can not even think what this life is like to have all your life that you have ever seen and known washed and ripped from beneath your feet in life within. For this life shook by an earthquake and Tsunami.

dedicated to all that felt it, experienced it, took part in it or were alive to see this part of history formed that day on Friday March,11 2011

May God bless all.

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Have you ever looked at a basket of fruit

it’s like no matter what size or shape the basket of fruit is

it always looks so perfect

every curve and straight line is fit just in place

also every displayed fruit basket is almost always used in a capture contrast

in photography or artistic  drawing

it’s almost always so delicious to look at in beauty

within drawing or photo that you almost never want to eat any of the fruit

you just would rather keep it as the still life beauty that it already is

this stunning extravagant still item

an item that fits any small empty space needing just a little something extra to fit the spot

Have you ever wondered if there were a spirit for your every need in life

If there were a spirit for every need in your life

 we probably wouldn’t need the help of a counselor or a shrink

 if we had just that one spirit who could lend us that little extra helping push

just think

if we had a headache that just would not ease

 we’d just say headache spirit please remove it away

if we had a friend in need we could just say

friend spirit please help my friend today

it’s easy to believe in a dream when it’s not there

but then to believe that these answers can be requested of God

that these simple answers  can be answered thru him

life isn’t so easy anymore

why can we always fill a simple void with an imaginary filler

however  it’s harder to put jesus christ in that same void 

but then trying to ask for that need to be met is impossoible to actually do the same

seems to me life sometimes could be real lame

try to think of Christ as that simple spirit

There are times in life where we have our ups and downs

weather we have our friends around or not

life travels many different roads

sometimes it can roll round and round like a rollercoaster

while other times it just travels up and down

throwing blocks within your path

giving life it’s own life’s turbulance

things in life we may see but we may not understand

things we may feel right but may not take the right path

life’s turbulance is a ride all it’s own

pay attention and follow your to tracks try to stay clear of life turbulance