Author Archives: J. Palmer

As I sit back and think of my life today I sit here whiping one tear out of my weeping eyes
I can only focus on the outside with myself hidden inside
However I hold tight to the only one I have bond myself for life to know all that is worth being in my mind
One tear and he is always there
He keeps me focused on the future ahead and holds my life keeping my head held high in times such as these when I become drained from the stress of the time pulling in and at my life
My love holds tight to him everyday knowing that whatever comes my way he is always there to stay and to be he is always there for me and bringing a simple smile upon my face no matter how tough he has to reach to get to me. That simple tear is what brought us here the first time so long ago
I know that what this life will bring all will be okay no matter how stressing life’s hand hands me he will remain there for me and together we will pull thru and help to pull my emotions flowing out of me so as I will not bottle them deep inside me
He is always there for me no matter what may happen in any time
He sets my heart, soul, and mind free giving me the releases I may need and not see.
One tear and he is always there

I was born to protect you and keep you safe from harm
Yet I keep questioning my ability at this when it comes to this in a tumor or risk of something out of my control of my hands
How is a mother to protect her young when it is something of the nature of this sense
Something one can not see or sense until after developing has already begun
I fear that I can not
Yet God told us I will give you what I feel you can handle and nothing out of the sense of your control
Yet if I can not grasp it in my hand I feel as if it is not in my control
If I can not control than it becomes a threat to me and I feel that you are in danger
However I always know that you are not as you are always by my side
However something like this I just can not pretend to hide
This groosum thing can defenately be seen with the naked eyes
It’s sight does nothing but makes me sit in fear and cry
I will not stop until I see a change
This is a sin to see you in
This is truly horrible
I was born to protect you as I have learned by being protected
However how am I suppost to protect you when I don’t even know what to do with such a huge lump as such
I was born to protect you,
But I don’t know how so I am just going to love you evenmore

Not a day goes by when I don’t think of you
You are my child what am I supposed to do
When you are sad i am sad for you
When you are hurt it hurts me to see it hurting you
Whenever there is something bothering you it always is bothering me too
Even if you are not in fear I always fear for you
I am your mother and mothers were made in by the image of God
To always respect opinions even if they may not always agree
Love unwilling and unconditionally throughout everything
Forgive and help learn what is right
And mostly protect you from all harm
These are a mothers charm
Okay but right now I must say I am not fully satisfied today
I am worried about your health today as I am not sure what I am up against with what is visable that can be seen
They said give it 48 hours and it should go away
However it is past that time already today and I have seen no change especially not in the better anyway and it is defenately not gone as they had thought that it would be. I am worried about your hearing of where this mess has layed its bed
I wouldn’t be a decent mother if I didn’t do any of these things at hand
However this obstacle in your life at the present time is not dealing a fair hand
I am emotionally and physically drained as I try to protect you as best that I can and pray for healing that is only of him
But my eyes have run dry and my heart has become bruised as my vibes are speaking louder than my words right now that are not in anyway feeling right right now at this moment indeed and I hang my head down in prayer in hopes that we are almost there. Almost where this healing may be as I fear the worst from the evidence around me that I can see
This is what being a mother is all about unconditional love to this child that she born out

If I could have eternity with you
I would ask for nothing more
The simpleness of life would be just fine living eternity with you by my side

If I could have eternity with you the happiest I would be you would be sure
Knowing everyday you’d be coming home walking right in my front door
If I could have eternity with you
My restless soul would be at peace releasing all within side itself knowing all will forever be alright

Although I still await eternity with you and the day I will be at your side

No more hidden lives and safety resting inside
If I could have eternity with you
I wouldn’t ask for anything more

Knowing you were by my side and that soon you’d be walking thru that front door
But still wishing all that were tonight

Eternity with you and us as one for life would be the best price I could ever offer you

Nothing more but just the simpleness of life

its a dream i share within my heart
a dream i share within my soul
a dream i live upon each passing day
a dream that is still a dream but it lives with me all the time
until this dream becomes reality i will dream this dream as i share within
it lives within my heart
and that is still where it will remain still just as a dream
will it pass to be more i pray upon my heart
though until this day here is where my heart will contently stay
i know this dream feels true and it is all about you but
right now that is all I’ve got
that is not alot but that is just that

To withstand the passing times
thinking this will never come by
yet holding on with nowhere else to run

Here is where I remain
as the passing time just drifts on by

Holding by faith is where I am
playing in chance in the rise of the early sun and the wake of the peak of the moon

Listening for your strong loud howl
pass of times drawing near
while I still sit and wait in faith holding me close by your side

Believing in what is true
believing in you use what I shall do
to help me travel through
always remembering you is what I will do
to never let go of the hopes that we’ve shared
here in the passing times is where I stand