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It’s dark and lonely in the deep cold night
The wolves outside howling at the gleam of the moonlight
The damp cool air hitting my face like a cool passing breeze after a storm
You hear silence and the hum of the air conditioner by my side
Alone and things running within my head while trying to rest in the comfort of my bed
With time running slim and nothing at hand
My hearts willing to chance the changes
My heart claimed one one soul man as my eyes seek what truth are around dew around me dripping like rain and rolling like marbles off each leaf and petal It’s dark and damp in the cold cold night
Here alone I sit and dream
Your dreaming has only just begun dreaming of love on what youve got inside of you mom
Thinking of when she first believed. I think we should let here alone. I sit and think of the ways our kids dream

I’m looking up and looking down
Along this path in life I have found I’m looking up, I’m looking down,I’m finding my way across this mangled ground. Your smiling face is all around. I am looking up and looking down
This mangled ground all around
The evil lurking around every bend and turn
The shadows hiding your disfigured spirit wounded indeed
The shiners lighting your way
Leaving choices that I am afraid to make undecided because of fear of the unknown future coming behind with this upside down life of mine I’m looking up, I’m looking down,I’m finding my way across this mangled ground. Your smiling face is all around.
You take away all my worries and shadow my fears
Making all bothering me within shine again making me feel safe.

I lay in my bed at night with tears in my eyes lying there and crying
Trying hard to cleanse my mind
Each thought brought out by each situation in life
Wanting you resting in my arms and by my side
You having all the power and time to come and find me
Knowing the digits designed for me and 601 at the hands and feet beneath me
But here I still lay alone at night with you not by my side as I would like
Keeping me wondering within the night will we make it throughout this life
With bread in our hands and something to eat
Water to drink and wash ourselves again the next day
Waiting to see the sun shining the next day
Everyday waiting in doubt and hope to be in your life
Watching all the holidays and even your birthday pass me by and by
Not once being with you and amongst your eyes sight
Everynight another cry remaining in love with what feels sometimes more like a fantasy than life
But I remain in my hopes and faith knowing that God has his ways even if they make no sense and will find a way
So I search for the next brighter day where a rainbow meets earth soil and smiles down on me.

Though I may not be with you I sit here in awe as I sense and feel you
Having a silence about this day as it is your very own day
I know things are not as we have expected but you have not withheld my mind
You have remained there within it at all times
Nothing is too hard for you to do your strength keeps us alive in us
Making it easier also for me to remain focused on you
I stand up as witness to you
I am your light and forever hope
I am strong in you
I am not going to forget your special day put out just for you
Happy birthday love
Just for your birthday

Disappointed with the path of my life I sit back still holding tight to my faith
Trying my best not to turn around and glance back
Yet still not knowing what words to say to you and feeling lost within myself and embarrassed at my eyes sights of this life I have around me
No answers to bare and all honestys put out
Tears still falling everyday as my mother has gone leaving my life aray and on such dismay
Nothing of her faults, nothing of her blame
Although unfortunately I still feel the discomfort and pain
my days all coming together and becoming one.
Worring is a thing of the day wondering if I’d ever see the sun.
Tears rolling off my eyes each thoughts remaining on my kids and you
I am not happy and I know that you aren’t either
But my thoughts all focused on that one new day.  My very own life. If I can not have life, may life have me.
As I am only disappointed with this life I see.

He says all the time that I am selfish, yet I ask myself why am I selfish for putting others before myself in everything I think or do
It’s always looking out for you
Yet you think It’s me me me
What am I to do to change the way that you think and perceive me
Even to be around you doesn’t only upset you but also me
I think myself not selfish when its never about me in my very own eyes but this you can not see and I don’t know why
I thought it obvious that all within my life was not about me
But you have blocked it and see me me me
Sorry guys It’s not about ME …
It’s about survival and what is best for myself amass my little family. I am sorry that you are blind to see, my life is about raising my three and working with me.

Brown eyes honest and content.
Making light with the steps traveled
A coat so slick in style and soft in feel
With the smell that sticks around with every fresh rains
I close my eyes to think of you even while you are not by my side and outline your each and every shades
With yours ears always keeping you alert
Your eyes watching and protecting me always.
In the peek of the night you sing your wild song at the big bright moon
I listen and hear your song while I dream in my sleep
Throughout it all your eyes and soul are what draw me to you thru everything.

I look into your eyes and although I can not see what you’ve seen I can see and sense and feel your pain. Uneasy to trust and hear what is truth your timid and torn between what you know as life and the journey of life itself. You try to face up and playfully play like a fox pup but stand your ground with ears perched like a young wolf protecting your territory and den. In search of the right path right therein where you stand in search of someone you could truly call a friend. Head still holding high you continue to travel on telling yourself to be strong. Knowing that your life will soon turn around you push on and steady to continue on. I see in your eyes just what rest you put behind to begin new now as you work to grow. You have those wolf eyes on you and they speak loud and wild. This is your life what you are learning to travel so keep focused and stay calm soon enough life will look up and not toward the ground.